Story of my own

Born in the heart of Kathmandu city, I always had a good time despite the absence of my mom until one day arrived, a day when I left home to become free and in search of liberty - my true liberty which would allow me to take actions on my very own decisions. Good or bad, I just started taking action and my journey to my self-choosen insecure future had begun on March 1996.

For the next couple of years I've gone through hell despair, financial owes and lots of difficulties are a norm. It wouldn't have been that difficult to me if I had a difficult childhood. But it wasn't and my anxieties knows no boudary. I was always depressed and left me be in a quandry all the time. But I always kept myself moving because somewhere I read that it's going to be a sunny day tomorrow.

Within these two years I've had enough of my loneliness and once I made my way back to home thinking I'd be accepted but my expectation remained for only few hours. It was then that I made myself stronger and started my journey all over again but this time fate had something in store for me, I was accepted as a salesman.

I came across people from all walk of life. As a sales man I was very much successful in persuading customers to sale the products. I was taking a taste of new life but still that wouldn't have promised a secure tomorrow.

Nevertheless, that was a nice feeling after such a long time. Meanwhile, I'd lots of friends and handful of very much trusted friends, the presence of whom just kept me going. By then, I had completed my Diploma in Business Studies but was still not ready for the competitive job market. I didn't have what it takes to be in competitive job market. Perhaps I didn't have right kind of qualification at the time but I was fully equippedwith practical business principles.

I continued working as a sales man from where I've earned trust of my boss and loyalty to them. Soon I started to deal personally with various distributors and parties and became close to them too. I was more than happy when I started to take handle of all financial give-and-take independently.

Life's like a roller coaster because there're lots of ups and downs and to learn how to cope and keep going is the only option given to us as a human being. Country's political failure created huge dilemma and in no time violence broke down and businesses plunges into deep fall. We are in the verge of bankruptcy and soon it was realised. The market condition was totally bleak and totally unpredictable. Many have gone bankrupt. Eventually, I lost myjob.

I only had a day or two with me to decide my fate and then something sprout in my mind and as per it suggested I took a huge risk of owning the whole shop and I did it in very limited time. I couldn't believe that I was a sole proprieter of the whole new shop. As a human being we are always left with challenges to reach where we wanted to be. There are exceptional cases who doesn't have to suffer just because they've born with silverspoon in their mouth.

It's not my fault that I didn't born with silver spoon in my mouth nor iron spoon rather I pursued my whole journey all alone putting my own thumb in my mouth thinking the day would for sure come one day!

Sleepless nights had begun when I proceeded to such a risky step. Stress level went up because they're my friends and I'm scared of this idea of not being able to pay them within deadline. Although there's no official deadline was set, I felt it hard that I must pay them back as soon as possible.

Financial straints exists even after that. I started concetrating in the business more than usual. But time came when it was virtually impossible for me to handle the business all by myself. A partner then emerged to buy 50% stake from my total invested capital. Shop did modest business after that amid the existing chaos and political violence in the country. More than a year since I started business, I just reinvested all the profits into the business of over all those periods. I never pay back because I couldn't have made it well should I have paid them back then. Something always struck in my mind and I know what's that precisely.

For this reason, I applied to one of the colleges in the UK and accepted as a full time student. As luck hasn't it for me, my interview turned turtle and visa's denied. Now, I only had one easy choice to be made,which I did it realising the potential setbacks.

It was then for the second time, I thought about my parent but it couldn't have worked too and one day I left forMalaysia, taking into account what my priorities are. In this process I had to left my Bachelor's program pending but I have never given up my study and continued after coming in Malaysia.