I didn't ask for it but m changed

There are notable changes in my behaviour over the past few years. Particularly since I came to Malaysia. I forgot to laugh, joke, make a fun and caricature and I forgot to be the way I was before. I remember my friends calling me "bunny' because my upper front teeth resembles to bunny.

While back home some five years ago, I'm the most chit-chat and chatter box one. I made people laugh and cry and make them be in awe. Never fought with anyone, never once raised my voice to my parents, teachers, and superiors but not always can we be the same old dude. It is very much true that time really make one change and transform into never-been-before being. Every time I wanted to say something "nice and hilarious", peoples would take me otherwise or so I think.

Language barrier is one vital factor contribuiting to this. Another reason, fueling to my transformation is, of course, my loneliness. I stopped saying it because people get irritated to hear same thing over and over again and when I realised it, many have gone far from touch. If only I could bring them back, I'll explain them in detail the real reason of my isolation. But that's not important now!

In fact,among them many have known it but these people didn't try to look at the situation from my point of view.They could have realised too as how scary is it to be ALONE in life if they only could have brought themselves to walk in my shoes. I used to cry over my lonliness before but not now. When you'd left alone in the wild world you'd learn it by youself as how to survive and in no time be used to it.Whether you choose it yourself or forced by other or whatever the reason be.

Coming to the point, feeling irritation over small matters, not being able to make an eye contact with peoples ... and so on were the recent changes in my behaviour, which obviously is not a good sign. Also, I used to be very much outdoor going guy but now I find myself locked inside my flat watching tv sitting on the worn out sofa at all the time. I was happy when I was in Nepal... then I remember the hardships I've gone through. Perhaps this is a learning process I am going through. By being bad I'm learning how to be good.